im sickkk of this.
i have not cried so much in forever....
i feel fucking pathetic. in a nutshell, i am.
the hours are so long, and i feel as if im doomed for eternity.
condemned. forever.
great. just great.
its not even been two fucking days....
you pryed from me everything ive ever wished to feel, and then told me i have to stop feeling this way. nice.
crash. bang. boom...shatter.
here, take these pieces. do with them what you please, i dont care what happens to them....
please. stop my existance. sound easy?!
PLEASE! STOP YOUR EXISTANCE!
all the wishes and prayers i ever made while ive lived, the love ive dreeamed of, transformed into a being i never thought was really there...
stupid love, i hate you, i hate you, I HATE YOU!!!
i dont want to hate. but i cant love you, its fucking killing me.... what do i do?
arent you so lucky to be able to just come to terms with this and forget about it? it doesnt matter whats going on on the inside does it? youre hard as nails on the outside...
i hate this. i hate it i hate it i hate it.
im so stuck on you...
WHAT THE FUCK!!!
I WISH I COULD JUST TELL YOU!
i wish it mattered... why doesnt this matter?
why dont i matter...
you dont understand.
EVERY.fucking.WORD.....
imagine if you were the one who felt and admitted those things...and now, someone expects you to "just forget about it"..."just let it go"..."SUCK IT UP!" "get over it, something else will come along."
if anything ever did, i wouldnt want it.
dont believe me? ask me again in 6monthes.
i meant when i said nobody could compare.
i meant when i said if i were to be alone, id BE alone.
im so screwed. sofuckingscrewed.
i dont kno what to do. i dont want to get over this, i dont want to TRY and get over this, WHY SHOULD I?!, ITS WHAT I WANT AND ILL BE DAMNED IF......
i guess, ill be damned.
thank you...
i just want to love.
why doesnt this world accept my love anymore...?
apparently its NOT what i should be doing....
ill become a total shrew. i dont want anything to do with love anymore. i hope youre happy, world. youve crushed one more loving spirit with your STUPID WAYS.
fuck you. from the bottom of my brokenfuckingheart. FUCK. YOU.
10:26 am - 05.09.10
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