i start work again tomorro. im seriously regretting saying that id take a manager job. its good pay, im sure, dont really kno yet. least its more than i was making before. but it means i have to work nites 2-3days a week. nites are 3-9ish. i am just not down for that...
im really thinking of telling them that im going to quit. the only problem i have with this is that i made them wait for me to come back, and thatll leave them with just 2managers again. ive never been able to be so selfish. bleh...idk. maybe it wont be so bad.
i do believe im going to be everybodys favorite manager tho. and cool ppl work there now...so. we'll see how it goes.
phillip is seriously not down for it. besides the fact hes going to miss me and then we will only have around an hour to spend together, hes going to be taking care of the baby for the first time by himself. i kno this is making him fret the most, cuz he prolly thinks hes going to mess up and not do it right or something. but i kno hes going to be perfectly fine, and im not worried at all.
ethans making noise. shhh! go back to sleep.
i have to say...i love my old friends. the ones ive had the longest. taylor and gina mostly. new friends are cool, and but old friends really are just the best. even if we're not so much friends anymore, its like we always will be. idk where this came from...bleh. im just becoming very nostalgic cuz i kno deep down that everybody isnt going to be here anymore cuz bay city truly offers us all nothing, and the only reason anybody would stay is if they had nowhere else to go.
but most of us do.
except for me...atleast not right now.
gosh this isnt how i planned anything.
but...what the hell am i thinking. i didnt plan anything.
anyway.
today was good. the ending was quite better. i havent had an orgasm in the longest time...and wow. it was great. it wasnt huge or anything, but it was very satisfying. i dont kno how it went from him tickling me to him touching me to us doing a few other things im not so blunt to mention. but i liked it. think im going to start wearing skirts more often!
lots of ppl tell me that sex really hurts the first time u do it after uve had ur baby. they say its like when u lose ur virginity. i dont remember that hurting very much...just that it was quite boring and pointless to me. but i dont think my situation is going to be the same. atleast thats not what was hinted at tonite. i think it might be mindblowingly wonderful, to say the least. i cant freakin wait.
i do feel like a virgin again. cept as a virgin, you have no idea what to expect from sex. at this point i kno exactly what to expect, and im damn sure eager for it!!
haha shitttt. ^_^
gosh i hate when i write like this. this entry is so utterly boring to me. oh well. guess im going to lay down now. maybe ethan will sleep for another hour or so and ill catch a little nap before he wakes up. he sure is making a lot of fucking noise. idk what for tho. i dont think hes awake. maybe he talks in his sleep or something. idk. hes a character.
nite.
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