im on the lookout for something i truly dont want to find.
i want it to be like me...all honesty, no gimmicks, no play, just play.
but all i kno, is you're not me.
never have been, never will be.
maybe i can just trust in the fact that i rubbed off on you enough (altho it doesnt seem too much like that right now) for you to do whats right as opposed to what you want to do.
god. it just INFURIATES me! i cant even begin to explain how angry i am. you make the worst fucking choices! its like you want to get under my skin, as far as u possibly can, as much as you can. well there you go! you did it!
DONT FUCKING DO IT AGAIN!
thought you were all smooth. shitttt son.
nobody is as good as me bitch. fucking christ.
dont take my love for granted; my love for you is granted.
anyway. monday nite i came down with a severe case of strep. went to the dr (half dying) yesterday, they had to give me 3sheets to stop my uncontrollable vibrating. the dr told me to open my mouth so he could look down my throat, which was extremely difficult. thank god he gave it a quick two second look and made up his mind on what i had by the horrible sick smell coming from my throat. said i had the worst case he'd see in a few monthes, and gave me some antibiotics. then i went home and went to sleep again.
ive soaked a near 5shirts with sweat since 10am yesterday, and i think im doing better. not half dying, thats for sure.
anyway. im going to go smoke whats left of what i had last nite. phillips mom came home while i was smoking in his car (had he not been barred out and fucking around, it prolly wouldnt have happened) and i put it out real quick. then her drunk ass wants to go and reshut his car door. thankfully, she was drunk and thats all she did. no, i wasnt doing anything except getting my blanket mrs. that is all.
sigh. im sick of humans.
11:38 am - 10.15.08
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