i dont have $286
or any other money either...
i dont want to ask you for it...even tho u already told me u would
i dont want to owe them either
and i cant see myself working a job into my day...
why do i have to feel that way?
i just need to SUCK IT the fuck UP.
dammit.
so ill pray i have good luck.
maybe something more important will happen and catch everybodys attention more than my dumb ass and the dumbass i was with.
god what the fuck was i thinking.
oh well.
life goes on.
it will, as long as i let it.
i just got over worrying about shit.
and still i have more to deal with.
my fault.
except 1part...i cant tell you that i blame you because i just dont want to.
we should just move.
im about done with this fucking place.
anyway. im thinking about moving in with phillip and his parents when they get their new house. idk for sure but i think its a good idea maybe.
i think im scared that if i leave my house, its gonna be like im not my parents child anymore...like i cant depend on them anymore. and i dont have any money, i dont have a job. i wish i could just feel comforted by the fact that phillip does have money and ect ect, but im not. idk why that is.
i just wish i was fucking normal.
remember when you realized that playing everything by the rules makes life super easy?
yea, but wheres the FUN in that.
fuck fun. im about to be anti-fun!
im just a soul whose intentions are good...oh lord plz dont let me be misunderstood
the minutes are ticking away
and my phone has no service.
oh how i desperately need you...
10:51 pm - 07.17.08
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