sometimes my brain functions on HIGH, WELL, and BEST all at once. like last nite.
"what are you thinking about?"
how very uncanny it was you happened to be drawing something i feel channels my energy too well...lol my mind is adrift the clouds up there and im waiting to see the moon again.
...so why are you awake lovely?
"oh a little of this, a little of that."
so tell me, why is it when we dont talk for a while that you revert back to acting like we just met all over again?
"cuz i cant help but talk to a pretty girl lol."
thats not what i meant. but thank you :] what i did meeeann. like you kno you can tell me why you're awake...but you wont, cuz we havent talked in a few. you've gone back into your little rusty nutshell that i wanna fucking pry open with a crowbar!! but its quite difficult to do more than a couple times...
"ive just had shitty things happening to me and ive been with ppl that are always too, that never helps either."
wish i could help, you kno you always have a friend whenever you need one, a gooood friend that isnt gonna fuck you over and that you can tell anything to....just, if you need it ya kno. cuz ive had to suck it up and say yea i really need you stupid ppl too :]
"pretty much im alone and thanks."
we are all alone. it is a simple fact. because we are individual organisms, seperate from others. think about it tho...go outside and lay on the ground and hug this motherfucking huge planet. then tell me ure alone. :] dont let that shitastic human-thoughtprocessed world get to you man...dont do it!
"too late."
ohhh love... :[ youve got to waaaant to feel a change morrre than anything, if you want to feel a change...without desire there can be no beginning or end result.
"i am changing, or atleast trying to."
good deal. thats all you can do. for yourself!!
"yea i kno but it doesnt really help much."
have patience. things take time....some things take ALOT of time. (its gay i kno)
"yea real gay and ive been waiting a while...ha."
well if you think like this daily, it will build upon itself til there will be a very significant difference...then suddenly the basis will be different, and you can start building on that...and thatll turn into something more...believe me, ive had to do this the past couple of monthes.
but anyway, i dont want the world to ruin you, you are an amazing human being. try and think of it as that, because we are all just little creatures of this earth, completely capable of running our own selves without the rest, and our lives are what we make of them...every thought, every breath, every word.
"very true, i just dont understand why some ppl get things so easy and every situation or situation."
i dont either...but i think of it this way, id rather have a shitty ass life and be able to think and kno as i do, then everything get handed to me and not be able to process a proper thought! i guess we're born with certain gifts and the rest we have to work for.
"when are we gonna have some fun?"
i suppose when we deserve it...how about, literally...monday? lets go outta town and do shit.
i like to feel inspirational. tho sometimes i wonder how many words i waste on ppl that dont understand, dont consider it, or just dont care...
4:40 pm - 05.30.10
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