and i still have faith in the goodness of humanity.
anything that was shitty in this place,
doesnt matter anymore, after this moment.
i was told, very sincerely
that someone is on my side, that im understood, and that im good.
aww. my heart melted. i was stunned...lost for words. played it off with a little heh-heh attitude...
when it really meant the world to me, really. it was all i could do to not cry. i just said thank you, it meant alot to me...when really, i shouldve said it meant everything to me.
but to ruin the experience, which these ppl have done...i wont go there anymore, to be so exposed...to these ppl...when i had given them every chance in the world...
all in all, im happy with myself and the being of me. im happy with the fact that even tho i was fooled by some, i was right about others. completely correct...and thats a good, nice thing.
i dont kno where else i wanted to go with this. i guess thats all...i really want to get drunk, or roll, or something...
lose control
so that i can control myself again.
i need to do this, so very soon...
you're gonna help me,
lift me up...
beyond the rainbows,
where it doesnt rain,
it pours
from black clouds blocking a bright sun
which blinds me....
i love it there.
you and me.
4:33 pm - 09.28.09
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