theres the ones that you love
the ones that love you
ones that make you come
ones that make u come unglued
wow. keyboards working good again. oh fuck i might have spoken too soon. idk. maybe i did. thought i did. we'll see.
oh fuck. i think i just have to type the letters a little extra harder to make them all work. fuck!! that means my keyboard problem is fault. FUCKSHIT! ugh.
so i spilled coffee on top of my laptop the other nite. yea...thought it didnt do anything. god. fuuuccckkk.
i love music very much.
who are we to promise we'll be leaving shortly?
oh and i love manson...i love all the songs on his most recent cd.
looove.
obviously it is too late for me to be awake.
when am i going to get immuned again?
so i have no idea what im going to title this entry. idk how to come up with one anymore...the shit i write about is so different from one statement to the next that it ends up being like 10different topics by the time i finish thinking about everything i want to write. and im just not down for the meaningless song quote title anymore. i actually want them to corrolate.
the last song quote i used for a title...however!...is so goddamn perfectly fitting. nothing could have explained the topic better, and on top of that, amazing song.
tis amazing.
i feel right now is the closest my writing has ever became like me.
and i have no idea if that makes any sense.
see what i mean? haha :D
tomorro i have decided, im going to dress sexy. skirt and stockings and boots. sexylike. straight hair, elaborate makeup. kinda. i was inspired.
what i like is that im prolly as big as she is/was (i dont really kno), and besides the fact that im into a little bit smaller females [and rather choose to look that way myself], i think shes damn sexy and looks good. it makes me much more confident actually. idk how i would tell somebody "thank, u boosted my self-esteem cuz ure kinda big and i think ure sexy still". i dont think i could be so blunt. but who knows.
but, just to clarify, i am still very much trying to lose weight. not obsessively...but i am still aiming to fit into my old pants again. tho i dont kno if some of them will ever make it up past my thighs again...i might look funny if i get as skinny as i was before. cuz ive loaded up some moster hips, and its not cuz im fat. theyre just [noticably] mucchhh wider than theyve ever been in my life. i kno ive had a butt this size before, but eh...hips not so much.
gaw i miss my college station body. i shall have to post pictures when i get them from my dad. i wanna be pre-ethan meredith again! phooey being pregnant!
ive changed alot in the past few days. its weird. i do like myself tho. im cool. and collected. and more...real i guess. like ive finally just accepted myself for who i was. or something to that extent. most likely not so deep...but sorta.
haha fuck iiidddkkkkk.
im a sex-a-holic.
uh oh. i hear babyness!
1:31 am - 06.15.08
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