if i had a girlfriend
and she was wearing what im wearing
[or lack there of]
well...id not be sleeping, i kno that much.
i mean really and truly i just wanted to sit up and talk to you for a while. i didnt even want to have sex again..if it happened it happened, but that wasnt going to be my intentions. its just to me, we dont get enough alone time at all, and i wish ud embrace the fact that we have all nite to sleep, and u couldve stayed up a few more minutes atleast to say goodnite.
im just so very tired of being left alone in my head. its depressing. i need to talk. i dont think u understand this. i dont get to do drugs, i dont get to do much of anything, and i dont get to talk with u hardly.
are u just trying to set me up to go insane???
GODDAMMIT!!!
i dont kno what the hell is wrong with my computer, but i dont think i can type a whole entry if every few letters just dont work! i mean, all the letters work, but every once in a while itll leave out a space or a letter. let me show u an example:
h y nme is meredith ad i am typing on my laptop. it s1233am o my the 14th 2008. yo probably think tha im skipping letters on purpose, but im mot defnitely not. in facti is taking me a considerable amount of restraint to not delete what i typ rght aay and correct it. god wtf is wrong wth my computer!?
i obviously have a virus. its like "antivirus 2008" bullshit or something. i got it off a porn site...go figure. fucking pisses me off.
anyway.
i wish i had a girlfriend. kinda. more like, i wish i had a playtoy :]? HAHA! because i dont want the committment of a relationship, more just for the sake of attraction and all that could follow from. i really need to get it out of my system. hmm, maybe soon.
le sigh.
ive been really into girls latey...
as a matter of fact, i think i have a tiny crush on this chick i just met. im not sure tho, but i think about her quite a bit and ive really been wanting to hang out ever since. shes a friend of my friend. well i think shes super...i really like her. shes young tho, i think only 14 or 15. no more than 15.
sunnys boyfriend is 15. that makes me feel damn old for some reason...
anyway. i guess im going to go to bed...no use in staying up and getting more annoyed by the second at the fact that my computer is screwing up. ill prolly try and see if i can get it cleaned up by that guy that did our other computer...cuz i cant deal with this. and im sure itll only get worse. so yea. nite.
12:58 am - 06.14.08
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