i miss being able to do my hair abnormal colors and patterns.
im walking a fine line of "normal" right now.
IT FUCKING BLOWS.
and i cant stand looking at michael's bright red hair and not being able to do that to my own.
so, i bleached two panels on the underside of my hair, and made a color scrub of pink over my burgundy. i hope it does something pretty...
i cant wait to see him today. id like to go into a lot of detail about us, but seeing as im happy, thats not likely to happen.
but ill say this,
he's perfect.
(too perfect! too good to be true? no, its true.)
i feel amazingly free to be myself, and he brings out the best in me.
(freeee bird, yeaaaa.)
i fucking love him. its been like 3wks.
(i think i want to eventually marry him....oh how insane does that sound!?)
ive been drinking alot lately. i guess its cuz i enjoy beer now, i enjoy being drunk, and im not smoking weed. ive cut down on cigarettes too, but barely.
went this last friday to isle of capri, and lost $93 before realizing i fucking suck at gambling, i dont like it anyway cuz its against ethics, and so i watched my mom win hundreds of dollars on the same slot machine, just to break even at the end of the night.
"its all in fun."
id rather have fun some other way that costs less and isnt so risky.
ahh, i want to get a job. i really, really wish i hadnt been so stupid and wrecked my car. it kills my motivation to ask for rides or have my dad shuttle me around. i want a fucking bicycle so i can do this myself.
or another car would be nice.
but beggers cant be choosers...
im going to craigslist for cars. maybe ill get lucky.
1:19 pm - 04.19.11
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